Not Enough Time
I have been mulling over this topic for a couple weeks now.
It first hit me when speaking with someone a few weeks back about the timeline of our going. The conversation went something like this,
Them: so when do y'all leave?
Me: We are hoping for July, depends on when we reach 100% support.
Them: Wow, that's only like (counting on their fingers)...April, May, June, July...four months!
And just like that, I felt as though the wind was being knocked out of my body, I thought, "there's not enough time"!
You know, not enough time to spend with those I love dearly. And fast forward a couple weeks, I was sitting in our last Bible Study meeting for the Spring, while listening to women share their hearts of what the Lord had been doing in their lives, I thought again, "there's not enough time"...Here. Spending time with these women who push me to the Cross and encourage me to continue to dig into His word.
Then there was the day I sat on the couch at a friend's house, drinking coffee and talking (two of my favorite things combined with one of my favorite friends!) and it was amazing, even in the midst of all our children running around. Pure bliss. And I left thinking, coffee just tastes so much better when shared with her and a good conversation.
And again, after running into our sweet friends at the store, even just chatting for a minute ~ because we are wrangling kids, they are wrangling kids ~ I got in the van and thought, "there is not enough time"...with them, some of the best friends we have here.
Don't get me wrong, we are thrilled at what lies ahead and excited to be a part of what the Lord is doing in Poland.
But sadness comes over me, time and again, as we are in the process of moving from this place and head on to what is next for our family. So I find that I have to remind myself over and over again to relish in each moment and cherish those I love.
This past Sunday's sermon could not have been more timely for me. Not only a great reminder that we should be thankful for each moment, as I had already been thinking about, but that there is a greater purpose that God is doing. He isn't just concerned with my well being and the good of our family. He has a much greater desire for seeing people come to a saving knowledge through his Son, Jesus. So today is important. Not just for my own good, in fact, that's a very self centered way of thinking. Today is an opportunity to be a part of a greater impact in the lives of those around me, an impact for eternity. In all reality, we may not even make it to Poland. I'm not promised tomorrow. Each moment I am alive is an opportunity for me to rever the God of the universe, and to seek ways to make His name known.
When I think about life from this perspective, I am in awe. And sadness begins to fade, because no matter how much time I have (or not), I know ultimately, this is not my home. Eternity with my God and Savior, is my ultimate home. I long for eternity with Jesus. And I long for others to know Christ in a way that saves them through faith. And in light of eternity, the idea of "not enough time" becomes less significant and I press on to what lies ahead.
-Jenny
It first hit me when speaking with someone a few weeks back about the timeline of our going. The conversation went something like this,
Them: so when do y'all leave?
Me: We are hoping for July, depends on when we reach 100% support.
Them: Wow, that's only like (counting on their fingers)...April, May, June, July...four months!
And just like that, I felt as though the wind was being knocked out of my body, I thought, "there's not enough time"!
You know, not enough time to spend with those I love dearly. And fast forward a couple weeks, I was sitting in our last Bible Study meeting for the Spring, while listening to women share their hearts of what the Lord had been doing in their lives, I thought again, "there's not enough time"...Here. Spending time with these women who push me to the Cross and encourage me to continue to dig into His word.
Then there was the day I sat on the couch at a friend's house, drinking coffee and talking (two of my favorite things combined with one of my favorite friends!) and it was amazing, even in the midst of all our children running around. Pure bliss. And I left thinking, coffee just tastes so much better when shared with her and a good conversation.
And again, after running into our sweet friends at the store, even just chatting for a minute ~ because we are wrangling kids, they are wrangling kids ~ I got in the van and thought, "there is not enough time"...with them, some of the best friends we have here.
Don't get me wrong, we are thrilled at what lies ahead and excited to be a part of what the Lord is doing in Poland.
But sadness comes over me, time and again, as we are in the process of moving from this place and head on to what is next for our family. So I find that I have to remind myself over and over again to relish in each moment and cherish those I love.
This past Sunday's sermon could not have been more timely for me. Not only a great reminder that we should be thankful for each moment, as I had already been thinking about, but that there is a greater purpose that God is doing. He isn't just concerned with my well being and the good of our family. He has a much greater desire for seeing people come to a saving knowledge through his Son, Jesus. So today is important. Not just for my own good, in fact, that's a very self centered way of thinking. Today is an opportunity to be a part of a greater impact in the lives of those around me, an impact for eternity. In all reality, we may not even make it to Poland. I'm not promised tomorrow. Each moment I am alive is an opportunity for me to rever the God of the universe, and to seek ways to make His name known.
When I think about life from this perspective, I am in awe. And sadness begins to fade, because no matter how much time I have (or not), I know ultimately, this is not my home. Eternity with my God and Savior, is my ultimate home. I long for eternity with Jesus. And I long for others to know Christ in a way that saves them through faith. And in light of eternity, the idea of "not enough time" becomes less significant and I press on to what lies ahead.
-Jenny
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