Finding Hope
I've been stuggling the past few days to find Hope in midst of life right now. Mostly because I'm looking at the small things and not the big picture in life! Because unexpected financial expenses have been arrising left and right and I've start worrying about how we're going to make it when we move to Florida. I've found myself to be lost in the things unknown and worry about things that are out of my control. I've had to do a lot of talking to myself instead of letting myself talk to me (if that makes any sense to anyone!) My husband has also been great encouragment and reminds me often that God is and will continue to take care of us in this time of transition, that I need to find Hope in who He is and know He can and will work ALL things out for our good and His glory.
Along with focusing on all the small things and not the big picture, God's been teaching me more and more each day about how I tend to still be so self-reliant and pursue my own plan, rather than seeking out what He is doing in the midst of life. I pray that my reliance will be in Christ and not in myself.
I'm also realizing that I get disapointed fairly easy in life if I don't get things I had hoped for. For instance, yesterday, I got very disappointed. See, Steve and I got 2 free passes to the movies...of course the seats are first come, first serve...so we got there about 35 minutes beforehand, thinking this surely would be plenty of time to get a seat, wrong. We missed it by about 10 people, I was bummed! Bummed because we are trying so hard right now to save all our reserves and add some to that, that we don't want to spend a whole lot on extra things like movies...so FREE movie tickets, to me, was a wonderful thing! When we didn't get into the movie, I walked all the way back to the car, bummed. Got in the car, still bummed...to the point of tearing up because things didn't go my way! Got home, bummed. At this point (with my husband desperately trying to find a way to cheer me up) I realized, I have a choice to make, continue to be bummed because the date night didn't go as I had planned, or enjoy the 'date night' with my husband at home. I did choose the latter option, but it took me getting over myself in order to realize that I don't need to let the little things like that disappoint me so easily. That I need to not focus so much on what I want to happen in life, but focus on what God has in store.
It's interesting how, a little event like this, can really teach me the importance of what my purpose in life is about, to bring God glory.
I'm thankful for the times that I'm human and doubt how things are going to work because it always brings me back to the same spot...relying on Christ, who is all sufficient and will take care of all our needs. He always has in the past and He will never let us down in the months, years to come. Things just may look different than I anticipate them to look!
To hit this home even further, I came across this woman's testimony this morning http://deathisnotdying.com/. She really reminded me to put things in perspective...I encourage you to listen to her story and browse her website. She has found Hope! And although she struggles daily, she knows that her Hope in Christ is unwavering!
Oh, How I'm thankful for a hope in Christ that is unwavering! I'm choosing to find Hope in Him today. Lord, Help me to trust your leading in our lives fully and be reminded of your promises daily.
Jenny
Along with focusing on all the small things and not the big picture, God's been teaching me more and more each day about how I tend to still be so self-reliant and pursue my own plan, rather than seeking out what He is doing in the midst of life. I pray that my reliance will be in Christ and not in myself.
I'm also realizing that I get disapointed fairly easy in life if I don't get things I had hoped for. For instance, yesterday, I got very disappointed. See, Steve and I got 2 free passes to the movies...of course the seats are first come, first serve...so we got there about 35 minutes beforehand, thinking this surely would be plenty of time to get a seat, wrong. We missed it by about 10 people, I was bummed! Bummed because we are trying so hard right now to save all our reserves and add some to that, that we don't want to spend a whole lot on extra things like movies...so FREE movie tickets, to me, was a wonderful thing! When we didn't get into the movie, I walked all the way back to the car, bummed. Got in the car, still bummed...to the point of tearing up because things didn't go my way! Got home, bummed. At this point (with my husband desperately trying to find a way to cheer me up) I realized, I have a choice to make, continue to be bummed because the date night didn't go as I had planned, or enjoy the 'date night' with my husband at home. I did choose the latter option, but it took me getting over myself in order to realize that I don't need to let the little things like that disappoint me so easily. That I need to not focus so much on what I want to happen in life, but focus on what God has in store.
It's interesting how, a little event like this, can really teach me the importance of what my purpose in life is about, to bring God glory.
I'm thankful for the times that I'm human and doubt how things are going to work because it always brings me back to the same spot...relying on Christ, who is all sufficient and will take care of all our needs. He always has in the past and He will never let us down in the months, years to come. Things just may look different than I anticipate them to look!
To hit this home even further, I came across this woman's testimony this morning http://deathisnotdying.com/. She really reminded me to put things in perspective...I encourage you to listen to her story and browse her website. She has found Hope! And although she struggles daily, she knows that her Hope in Christ is unwavering!
Oh, How I'm thankful for a hope in Christ that is unwavering! I'm choosing to find Hope in Him today. Lord, Help me to trust your leading in our lives fully and be reminded of your promises daily.
Jenny
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